There are times that you just want to cry

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This has nothing to do with Christmas and the jitters because it's nearing.  

I just got home from the office, tired as usual and begging to rest.  I cannot rest, not yet, because I still have tons of things to do.  I just want to cry.  I have never worked so hard in my entire life.  

This morning, when my son woke up, he looked at me and asked, "Where's Mommy?"  

Yes, he asked me on my face where am I.  I was teary eyed when I answered, "I am here.  I am your Mommy."  He turned his back on me afterwards.  I bet he was not satisfied with the answer.  I gave him a hug reassuring him that I am with him, that I will be there when he needs me, and that I am still his mom.

I have a lot of catching up to do.  But for now, I will have to cry. I just have to let it out and forgive myself for being absent in my son's life for quite sometime now.

Comments

  1. June_ButterflyDecember 10, 2010 at 10:34 PM

    Hey,we only can do so much.A good cry always helps.Rest assured you're not the only one who feel this way.

    I'm sure your son knows you're doing your best.
    Let it all out and let the tears wash it all away.

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  2. JoannalyneDecember 11, 2010 at 4:50 AM

    Thank you for the reassurance. I am feeling better now. =)

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